Wishing That I Could Drop Dead
One of the very few poems I've liked. Please give your comments if you like it too. !!*!! Wishing That I Could Drop Dead !!*!! Cannot go forward, cannot go back, Wishing that I could drop dead in my tracks. I know I am leaving something behind, And it is tearing my spirit inside. Choices have always made me aware Of contradictions in me - so unfair! It seems that it all has to come down to me. I wonder if someone my struggles can see? Self-hatred, self-torment - familiar sight! Alone, be alone, and from it all hide - That's my first impulse that won't get me far. Is that way for many, or is it my star? Maybe I should have simply there stayed, And prevented the so unknown fate That chills me and makes me so scared. Who knows how I would have otherwise faired? But my life has passed in change after change, Now in security I feel too strange, And my restless heart does make me go on. Moving and shifting is ever my song!